Reflections

As I sit outside on my second morning here in Puerto Vallarta, drinking my cup of coffee, looking out over the city, I pause to reflect back on my life and to what brought me to this point in time.  I think it began in the late 60’s.

A midst the sounds of birds singing, dogs barking and chickens squawking it reminds me of the totality of life, the never ending circle and the many gifts given freely as long as we are open and ready to receive them.

There is a gentle breeze blowing helping to offset the heat of the sun, blazing down, spreading rays of sunshine to brighten the day and take away the dark of night.  No rain, but surely it will soon come and cool things down.

I give thanks and praises every day for the life I have been given, the tenacity to rush forward to the next adventure without pause or regret, loving life, being comfortable with my own selfishness, knowing that I am loved unconditionally by the folks that count, namely my family and friends.  knowing it’s OK to let go of those that judge me and know me not.

There was a wonderful post on FB this morning.  A meditation on unconditional love.  A tough one indeed.  One of the greatest challenges I continue to strive for in my day do day existence.  It sounds great in theory, but very difficult to put into practice.  Judgments always seem to be sitting on my shoulder, waiting to jump out and attack!  I am much more loving and forgiving towards others than I am to my self.

The last few years have been a very trying time for me physically.  I have had, and continue to have some major issues to deal with.  When I’m down and out physically and struggling with pain, I find it difficult to stay in the moment, in love and unconditional.  All the anger and ‘why me’ tends to surface, causing great emotional duress and making it difficult to stay focused and strong in my daily meditation, difficult to stay open, focused, trusting in the power of the Universe to bring me back to my center.  I find I am quick to judge my limitations and not so quick to forgive what I can no longer do.

Well, I seem to have gotten off track….but that’s what a rambling mind does I guess.  I really do want to figure out how I got this far in life so I will continue another day.

freespirit424 is going to have a beer…might help me think…haha

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